Log #4: Reuniting With A Best Friend Feels Amazing

It feels amazing to be reunited with the people you call your best friends. I happened to meet one last week. For respect of privacy, I will change his name for this post until the time is right.

Last week, I made plans with my best friend to meet up with him with Brooklyn. This is something that's been planned for weeks and always cancelled. Life, especially during this stupid pandemic, has been making our plans to get together. Now we finally picked a date and I had the money to travel down to Brooklyn and meet up with him.

There was a catch.

Not only was I going to meet with with John, I was also going to meet up with friends from his bible classes. I've been well aware that he's a Christian and has been attending bible classes for quite a long time. Some people think it's kind of ironic that here is a Christian who has a best friend who is openly gay. But John and I make it work.

I packed up and made my way down to Brooklyn. He and his other friends decided to hang out at this place called Pier 9. I never been there before, which made it more spontaneous. It was only one 4 train ride to Borough Hall. I arrived there in one hour and I made it to the Pier in 15 minutes.

It was beautiful and I ran into John in 15 minutes. It was like time never stopped. We really missed each other and I was so happy to see him again. I met up with his bible group. They were all grouped together playing volleyball. That's when I was really ready to have some fun. I love volleyball. It reminded me of the beach all over again. I took off my shoes and got into the action.

The whole game was fun for a while. I introduced myself to my bible group. Then I sat down and shared a beer I brought with him with John. It was a shared moment. We had an awesome time reminising about old times and current times.

We eventually departed the pier and then went out to the restaurant for more refreshments. The beer served there was actually pretty strong. I pint of it got me into that drunk moment already. So imagine how I felt after the second one. I was able to walk. I dropped off John at his train station which was the C train. We hugged goodbye.

Then I began walking back all the way to take the 4 train. It was a beautiful reunion.

Log #3: Unexpected Phone Problems

I hate it when your only cell phone goes on the frits in the middle of your production work. You never realize how dependent you are with your cell phone until it shuts down on you. It reminds me of an interview Barbara Walters did with President Barack years ago. It was days before he was inaugurated for his first term. I'll never forget this interview.

She asked the President "How are you going to live without your Blackberry?"

The President laughed and said, "This is a problem."

I don't remember everything that he said, but I do recall how he would die if he didn't have it or if something bad happened to it. I would watch clips of him always on his Blackberry getting his work done. I thought it was a little ridiculous at the time because I wasn't dependent on technology. Now these days, I totally get it.

I was busy streaming Netflix and Hulu on my computer waiting to pay my cell phone bill to get my hotspot rebooted. I have a Chromebook and everything on this laptop operate via Wifi. So in a way, I'm dependent on this thing. One day, it stopped charging and then shut down. For three days, I had no cell phone.

I was out of my mind because I couldn't use my laptop either. So I patiently kept myself together and waited. I got my monthly payment and upgraded my phone. Now everything is back on track. I think now it's time I get myself a second cell phone. I'll apply for one of those free cell phones and handle backups. Always need emergency things.

Log #2: New York City Is A Bitch

New York City is a bitch!

I know it's a hard thing to say, but at the same time, it's not a hard thing to say coming from a, an that was born and raised in New Orleans, La. When I moved up here, I'm grateful I moved to the city that inspired me to move here. Based on the Woody Allen and Nora Ephron movies, I believed I'm it. So this is my opinion regarding romantic comedies and fairytales. Stick to your humor instinct.

Log #1: My Current Moments of Anxiety & Depression

I'm not going to lie. Life can be a real bitch and lead you to depression.

For the past year and a half, I've been going through what everyone has been experiencing during the quarantine of COVID-19. Throughout my life, I've worked as a journalist and brand ambassador for multiple companies like Coca-Cola, Pepsi, TripAdvisor, liquor companies, etc. Working as a sampler and as a physical representation of the company. I made amazing money working for these companies freelance. While I was going through college, my rent was covered and food was always in my fridge.

But then things shut down.

Businesses were closed. All of my agencies stopped. Some of them shut down because they couldn't afford the mortgage in their buildings or something. So that caused me not to be booked for gigs. It was a disaster.

So I spent months with no gigs. Just laying in bed watching movies and tv shows over and over again with my pet rabbit. It was fun for the first three weeks, but then it was horrible. I felt like I was developing OCD. I had to do something. I started cleaning the house and reorganizing the furniture. I started cooking meals that can last two weeks. I was writing in my journal like a coyote.

I don't know but I think there is some mentality of a man where they need to work. If they don't, they go crazy. There was a report it's the reason for a lot of crimes happening in certain cities. The reason why the men are causing crimes is that they're bored.

Anyway, I did get depressed. I was binge drinking a lot. My friends called worried about me. I stayed in my apartment for three months. My place was a mess because I only ordered takeout the entire time towards the end. Damn, I can't wait for this to end.

But throughout this experience, I realized the best to do is to not hide my feelings and keep it in. So I made the decision to go back into blogging about my life again. And to be quite honest, it's actually healthy. But unfortunately, I can't bring back my previous blog "Roque's Reality." So I decided to start a new one. Kind of like evolution.

So I've started this new blog. Like always, I'm not holding back. So everyone, welcome to "Roque's Log."